Trying Times

We are frontier missionaries. What does that involve? Well, nothing that you would ever be prepared for. No one but God Himself can prepare a couple to do pioneer Gospel missions. Jesus, by His Word and Spirit, gives us the power and grace to do this work. 


Frontier missionaries face circumstances in different ways. We have dealt with betrayal, demons, lying, stealing, being called false prophets, and seeing many die. As I read through the Gospels again I am seeing them in a new light. Christ’s words, what he went through, and how he handled problems, all these were done perfectly and with no sin. Even though we are faced with these difficult situations we are here in this place because Christ has called us to this work: to proclaim the Gospel of Jesus Christ. We are bringing it to such a lost and dark place, knowing that this is where the Lord has called us to serve Him. 


I often think of the great missionaries of the past. Consider John Paton, one who was in constant danger for years and still brought the people the Word. David Brainerd ministered to the American Indians while sick with TB and living in harsh conditions. Think of Jim Elliot, and the others with him, who followed God’s calling to the South American natives, and in their obedience were killed. But their deaths were not in vain, for through their deaths many came to Christ and it opened the door for Elizabeth to go back to those same people. And what was the outcome? The people were saved.


As we face these trying times we continue to pray for the harvest of God’s people. I pray for it; what a glorious day it will be!

Mark 5

 Caleb has been preaching recently from Mark 5 about the man with the demons in the cemetery.  It's such a great passage to teach on since they are all too familiar with demons themselves. We have had some great conversations with them regarding the demonic force and how to turn from it. We explain to them that if they let go of this evil and turn to Christ the Holy Spirit will come to live in them and they will be shielded and protected from the demons coming to make camp inside them. Sad to say I believe there was a young girl in our village with a demon. She was "long, long" as they say in pidgin, meaning crazy. I would talk to her and at one point helped her with a sore on her hand that was literally eating away half of her flesh. The sad thing is that in October she drowned in the river. Reality check.... yes demons are real, and yes they want you dead. I was so heart broken by this, but have been using it as a teaching tool to others that they do not have to fear this if they turn to Christ.

On another note, 2:45am Caleb and I were woken up to our names being called outside. It was like a weird dream, for you heard your name being called but there was no knock at the door or anything, just this faint whisper. We both jumped out of bed thinking that there must be something no good happening for why would they wake us up. My heart always starts to pump that adrenaline and get me ready for the fight or flight of what is coming. When we turned on the light and walked outside there was Elsi and Simoi holding a bamboo torch and telling us that MORE FUEL WAS STOLEN. Yup you heard me if it wasn't enough to to steal 15 gallons before they had to steal another 15 gallons~ oh  I was so mad. You see two days before we took down the motor house because obviously it was too easy to break into to steal. So we took it down and Simoi was going to build a bigger and better one. We had the fuel in 55gallon drums on the grass next to his house not thinking at all that someone would dare steal it again and out in the open like that. YUP, we were wrong. We know its an inside job and one of our Moka people stole it. We now have a court order out for them since no one will tell us who did it. I feel like screaming and crying at the same time. I mean I told them we help you, care for you and share the Word of God with you and this is how you treat us. I am not the first missionary nor the last and I know that many, many missionaries have gone through this as well as much worse. 

Please pray for us

*that they will not continue to steal from us

*that they will be saved

*that the Lord will protect us and care for us.

*that our hearts will be in the right place!

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Day 24: Moka: Saturday, February 10, 2018

Hebrews 9:27 “It is appointed for each man to die, and then after that comes the judgment.”

Ps. 69:3 “I am weary with my crying out; my throat is parched. My eyes grow dim with waiting for my God.”

THIS ENTRY IS A LITTLE EXPLICIT. SO BE ADVISED.

This morning is sobering for me. When I woke I went and got my breakfast and was making coffee when 3 ladies came into our yard. I normally don’t have anyone help me on Saturdays because I know they too have their house work. I asked Caleb through the door to tell them I don’t need help today. But that is not why they had come. One of the women of the village was in childbirth in the village and they came to me to ask for medical gloves. I asked them why they needed medical gloves, and they told me they woman had given birth, but her placenta was not coming out. I decided to go down with them to see what was happening. When I got to the shack where the woman had given birth, I saw the woman on the floor and I could see the serious concern on all the women’s faces. Garo was there with a plastic rice bag as her ‘glove’. That alone probably had cut the inside of the woman. I handed the gloves to Garo and then asked the women who were present all the questions I could think about regarding a placenta (I am no mid-wife and don’t know everything regarding childbirth, only what I have experienced with my own child-birthing). They all said they had tried many things, but the placenta would not come out. The woman was still laying on the floor, and there was blood everywhere because of the bleeding. She was moaning, and her black skin was now yellow. I asked how long she has been bleeding, and they all advised me that it had been hours. I realized that this was much worse then I thought, so I yelled up the hill to Caleb to send me our Satellite phone (thanks again to all of you who donated to that project; our sat phone is our only mode of communication in Moka, and it is vital to our ministry). Elijah came running down with the phone and I immediately called a nurse at the mission-base clinic. I was able to get through (which is not always the case). As I was explaining the situation to the nurse over the sat phone, all of a sudden I heard all the women begin calling out the woman’s name. I walked back over to where the patient was, and I saw she was dead. Just like that her soul was gone from her and her body was limp. I cried out to the nurse on the phone, “SHE JUST DIED!” I was beside myself. I couldn’t save this woman from death; I didn’t even help her. I felt helpless myself. All the women of the village started to wail; at least 20 women were standing with me and they were screaming and crying. Many were throwing their bodies on the woman who had just died. She was lying there naked with a newborn baby by her side, but now she was dead. I was the missionary lady, with the sat phone, with no answers. It humbled me to think that I am a missionary and I knew I WOULD see difficult things like this. I just wasn’t expecting this during the first trip to Moka. The woman who died was in her early twenties. She had come to my house a lot during the past month. I knew she was pregnant. I just talked to her the other day about the skin fungus that was all over her body and how I would bring her medicine the next time I come to Moka. We ate dinner at her parents’ house the first week were here. She had never heard the Gospel message; she never once came when Caleb preached the Word; and shame on me, I never personally told her the Gospel either. They re-dressed her dead body and placed her on a dirty foam mattress. From the shack where she had given birth they carried her to the underneath of Garo’s house. This is where they would hold the “funeral”. To see them all, with no hope, throwing themselves on her body, was very sad. Caleb and our two kids came down. I was crying and so sad. My merciful Bella didn’t really understand but she did know that I was sad, so she too started to cry. The wailing alone of the people can overwhelm you. The four of us went back up the hill to our stick house. I could still hear the wailing from our house, and I was told that this wailing can go on for days. By God’s mercy the baby lived, it was a boy. Now the grandmother will be taking care of this baby. The husband is not in the picture; he has abandoned his family. I am tired from crying; I feel weak. Please Lord, “Use this situation for Your glory and the advance of the Gospel.” Later in the day some men came to tell us that nobody “just dies”. As animistic people, they believe that if you are doing ‘bad’ then the evil spirits will get you. The evil spirits might “get you” through a snake, or a crocodile, or a tree falling on you, or in this case, dying in child-birth. Because this woman died, she obviously was doing ‘bad’ (according to the worldview of the animistic people of Moka). We went on to teach them that their customs/traditions/worldview, and what the LORD says are two very different things. The worldview of animists in Moka is contrary to the Scriptures. The whole world lies under the influence and power of the Evil One (1 John 5). We are all dead and doomed in sin and only Jesus holds the key of life. Caleb told these men we all deserve death because of our sin. At the very beginning when our first father Adam sinned, we all sinned with him and died with him. Caleb quoted Scripture, one being Hebrews 9:27. The men didn’t seem upset with what we said; instead one of the village leaders asked Caleb to come down and preach at the funeral. “Oh Lord I see good coming from this; let your word go forth!” About an hour later we went back down the hill to be part of their “viewing”. Her body still lay on the mattress. Her newborn baby was placed next to her head, and the dead woman’s mother was wailing over her. Our family sat down under the house with everyone else. We sat for a while, then Caleb preached. He preached from John 11. Lazarus had been dead in the tomb for 4 days, but Jesus raised him to life. In John 11 Jesus says, “I am the resurrection and the life. Whoever believes in Me, though he die, yet shall he live, and everyone who lives and believes in Me shall never die.” Caleb preached the Gospel to the people. About 40 adults were preset and heard as Caleb preached the Word in the national language. Caleb pointed at all of them and then said we don’t know the time that God has appointed for us to die, so you must be ready NOW, not tomorrow, not a year from now… OH how I pray that many were touched by the power of the Holy Spirit and His Gospel. The people of Moka are slaves to their animistic customs/traditions (in much the same way as Americans are slaves to comfort, entertainment, and money). We are praying for the power of the Gospel to transform this village. I am praying that the Holy Spirit will be working in all the hearts of the Moka people. Elijah and Caleb left shortly after that. All the men were leaving to go dig the grave so there was no need for them to sit there anymore. Bella and I stayed a little while longer. Bella would whisper to me and ask things like, why does she have a baby? Why did she die? Why is only her head sticking out of the sheet? All are good questions. All are part of life here in Moka, and everywhere in this cursed world. There is no “shielding” my children in this life we live as pioneer missionaries bringing the Gospel for the first time to a remote unevangelized village. May the Lord give me strength to answer questions wisely and biblically. Only through God’s Word can you have a true worldview. May my children learn from all the circumstances we will come across. Most of the world experiences death differently than America portrays it. My prayer for this day is that God’s glory will out-shine all evil, and may His Word go forth with unstoppable power. May we not grow weary in doing good, knowing that in due time we will receive our reward if we do not give up (Gal 6:9). Thanks be to the Lord Jesus that He has defeated death for all those who believe in Him. He was raised from death because it was not possible for death to have power over Him. In Adam we all die; but in Christ we will be made alive (1 Cor 15). Lesson #24 You never know when your time is to come…We must be ready!

Hard times

October, 23-25th Both of these days will be forever burned into my memory. Sunday the 23rd started off as any other Sunday. We started meeting under Jamica's house because the village said they didn't want us meeting in the school building anymore. We waited to see if anyone would volunteer to have the meeting on their property and he did! We sang and had a regular meeting about 5 men showed up so we are thankful. That afternoon Jamica and his wife, Nano said there were going into the bush (the jungle) to get sak sak which is their staple food from a tree. My day went on and we went about our business until it was coffee night. Coffee night is something we do for every Sunday afternoon where we serve coffee and have a devotional. This time normally leads into some great conversation about Biblical things. Well anyway we were all talking when a kid ran up to tell his mom that another kid got bitten by a poison snake. I over heard this and ran into the house to get the snake bite kit and started down towards the river. When I arrived I found out it was Jamica's granddaughter, and she was already dead. They were wailing over her and holding her up. It is such a hard thing to be a part of because culturally it is so different. There is no satin sheets or a beautiful box it is just raw straight up reality. A dirty body that died of the poison of that awful snake. But worse then that is the evil one just keeps winning another one. Sandra was about 10/11 and was walking the jungle with her grandfather to cut little trees to make a shelter. She was bit on the leg but not really aware of it and within three hours was dead. I found it to be ironic that it was the granddaughter to the man who had opened his house up to have the Sunday meetings under. The gospel was heard that day and the evil one was not too happy. Satan is real and he is not thrilled about us. Please pray for this village, please pray that the Word will go forth and His Holy Spirit will save.

Oct 25th Wednesday was the day Caleb was coming back from the village 8 hours away. I didn't sleep well that night. I had fear and felt overwhelmed by many things. I was making supper around 3:30 pm figuring I would get it all ready for when he arrived. Elijah yelled out to me while I was chopping onions, that a man was in the yard. It was Sibona, I ran to see what he needed and he yelled that his son was bitten by a poison snake. At first I honestly thought he was joking. We just had buried the other girl the day before. I was like are you sure? I saw his wife in the windhouse (our little gazebo type building on the property) with the boy on her lap. Elijah helped me gather the snake bite stuff and we went running. He was alive and talking. I first went right to the wrapping and then the suction of the poison. I did that for about 15 mins and just started praying. His name is Benjamin so I asked him questions and he knew who I was and was well aware of what was happening. He told me that his side was in pain and I figured the poison was already raging through his body. Bella and Elijah were sitting there as well. I couldn't get a good timeline of when he was bit so I was not sure what would happen. I told them I would be right back for I was going to call out on the radio to my in-laws to have them pray. By the time I came back the whole village was there and they were doing their custom stuff on him. I think at that point I lost it. I started talking really loud that none of this would save him. Nothing could save him now other then God Himself. I could feel this oppression of evil pushing down on me. Benjamin was screaming now and the pain was making him convulse. Yes people this is real and this was happening. I was watching his little body die and the people have such fear in their eyes. I was holding his hand at one point and his parents were screaming his name in his ear. We were losing him to the poison. I felt like I was defeated. I felt helpless and surrounded by no hope. Caleb was still gone so I was on my own with Christ as my warrior. Why couldn't he save him? And then he died. I wailed with tears rolling down my face. He was gone and he was only 5. Why? Lots of why's, ran through my mind. Doubt crept in at points. My children see and are apart of things not many children in the states are. They see real life is ways many might think they shouldn't but this is reality we all die and there is no sugar coating it here. Right after he died they whisked him down to the village to cry and with that everyone was gone and the kids and I were left alone. As I cried I feared as well, What if it was my children? Lord why do you have so many people here die from TB and snakebites help me... Please Lord guide me through the struggle help me I need you more than ever because I feel so stripped of all things. (side note, I found out later that he was about an hour away and his father ran to my house from the bush to get help. So he was bit over an hour before he got to me.)

For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. You will tread on the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent. Psalm 91: 11-13

There is no one holy like the Lord; there is no one besides you; there is no Rock like our God. 1 Samuel 2:2